hari itu

hari itu,
sendirian tanpa teman,
mundar mandir di birai taman,
mengenang untung rugi nasib,
sentiasa berpusing-pusing,
berlegar-legar di ruang,
kotak pemikiran yang kosong.

hari itu,
masih lagi mencari,
di setiap sudut,
kotak pemikiran itu,
yang masih kosong dan sepi,
tanpa berita,
tanpa cerita,
tanpa sinis,

hari itu,
terus lagi bercambah,
merebakkan wabak,
terus menerus tanpa dihalang,
terus meliputi ruang yang kosong,
terus mengisi sudut yang dingin,
terus menghantui,
setiap ruang pemikiran yang kosong,

hari itu,
hari ini,
hari esok,
terus saja kosong,
yang bermain di kotak pemikiran itu,
yang dulu sentiasa berisi.


noBta yang kekosongan

Aku?

Kesibukan aku?ya..mungkin..terhadap komitmen aku yang lain. tak salah sekiranya aku berkata-kata sebegitu.

Selepas sahaja aku balik dari Selangor hari tu, sakit kepala aku semakin mengurang. Bila aku bagitau mak, dia kata aku sakit sebab rindu dengan keluarga. Betul ker?

Mungkin jugak. Empat tahun lepas perkara yang sama berlaku bilamana aku tak jumpa ngan parent aku lebih kurang tujuh bulan. Dan kepala aku sakit macam nak pecah. Bila jumpa doktor, dorang kata stress. So dorang bagi cuti n aku balik kampung jumpa my parent.

Alhamdulillah semua jadi ok balik. Tapi waktu tuh aku tak perasan lagi. Maybe sekarang baru aku nak sedar tentang kebenarannya kan?

Entahlah. Nak menaip blog sendirik pon macam kurang selesa dah. Kenapa? Entahlah..

Al-Fatihah to my grandfather

Three days ago, I went back to Selangor. My grandfather passed away. In the morning and I got the messege from my father in the afternoon.

I rushed up calling all my siblings around here at Penang. Around 7 pm, my brothers, sister and me started our journey from Penang to Selangor. We arrived there around 1.30 am. Most of our relatives were asleep already except for my mom, dad, Pak Lang, Mak Yang, and Paksu. Also two of my cousins.

Dad let us wacthed the face of arwah. He was so calm. Just like a normal sleep. With smile. I'm so touched when i saw his face. After I read the Yassin, adn some pages of Al-Quran, I felt so sleepy. It was 6.30 then.

Around 8.30 am, it time to bath the corpse. Now I experiencing on how to give bath for the corpse. Quite hard. 9.15 am, the corpse being sent for pray. Then time to burry the corpse. And the burried remain steady. Everything gone well.

At night, a small ceremony being held to pray for the arwah. Everyone looks just fine. Since arwah went in easy way, so everybody has no worry at all.

I came back to Penang yesterday. I had to rush because I had an appointment to make with the doctor regarding on my headache. Too bad.

Anyway, the look on arwah's face was totally make me relieve. What kind of face that I'll look like when I die soon? Only He knows how.

Headache and hope

What a painfull headache I had past few weeks. Seems like this world is turning upside down. Thank goodness there is a special person who always keep taking care of me.

Even though the school holiday is for two weeks, but I still can't manage to go back to Pahang. Since I have some appointments to make with the doctor.

Every two days, I have to check my blood presure. I don't know what going on with me. Seems like I'm having a rough time due to my daily routine. It is not something that I can accept. But I hope for the time being, I can mange it. Just a hope.

a long, long time..

it's been a very long time i didn't post my entry. i dunno why. let say if i'm a busy man. why i can't spend my time just for a bit to upload some news stories, rite?hehe.

Nah..it just i'd been so lazy to create my story. lack of ideas. but still i have stories to tell to the others.

yesterday, i went to my old school. to get my latets payslip.and also wanted to see old friends. you know what, most of them said that i'm kinda getting bigger. am i? a bit i think. last year, 65 kgs. this year my weight almost reached 70 kgs. how's that?haha.

the reason is simple. i told them, i'm too happy with my life lately. also my new school's headmaster is a very understanding one.that's why la beb.haha.

next two weeks, the school holiday will start. and i don't think i'm going back to my hometown.since my parent is goiung to came here.again?haha.

ok guys, see you in my next entry..adioss..

Humang aih..

erk..lamanya aku tak hapdet..dah penuh sawang kat rumah aku neh.haha. bukannya apa kan. pc problem la plak. bengang seh..haha.

Minggu lepas, balik kl ngan eisz pasal nak repair pc.jauh tuh nak repair pc.hiks. So, sampai sana ingat nak gi lepak kat umah blogger comel sorang nih, tapi dia plak boleh pegi genting. Erm..nak lepak ngan Fizz tak tau plak nak kontek dia camner. Amirah syuhada? Nun jauh di seberang beliau sedang mengajar barangkali.uhuk.mesti tersedak kan.

Erm.. ada gak terpikir nak lepak-lepak ngan bro naga ke, tapi segan la plak.kang orang kata dah tak tau nak pegi mana baru la nak ajak lepak sekali kan.hahaha. dah tuh?memang betul pon.memang dah tak tau nak pegi mana. hasilnya, terpaksa melangut kat rumah member eisz sampai pc siap di repair.iskiskisk.

So, dalam minggu nih, aku kena set soalan untuk semua pelajar aku. nanti korang, aku buat susah-susah.biar korang semua takder sorang pon dapat A.muahaha.babai.

My Received Wishes

As my phone's clock showed 12:09 am, I received a message from my most love one wishing me birthday.

The second wished from my badminton's group and there were five of them.

The Third was from my sister at 6 o'clock in the morning.

And the last one, is from e-chub. Thanks u guys.

As for my love one, no need to worry, you gave me a present earlier than my birthdate.hehe. Thank you so much.